![So today our fish, Tio Mari, died. No big deal right? It’s just a fish. Wrong completely wrong. You don’t take it for walks, you don’t teach it tricks, it just sits in its box and tries to look as cute as possible floating around. So why am I all upset about it? It was our fish, that’s why - Love and I. We won that at the Tet Festival about a month ago and it was kind of my replacement of a puppy I was asking for. Everyone from that night, including him, kept saying “Oh you know it’s just gonna die in like 2 days, it doesn’t matter.”
But that night he got all flustered that he couldn’t win me a big stuffed animal, so we won a fish [even though we cheated] and from that point on that fish had sentimental value to me. I named it Tio Mari like this inside joke song that we know, we were the “parents” of it and he would jokingly deny it saying he doesn’t look like him, etc.
Point being I took care of this fish, like I took care of us. I was always tending to this fish - with hope everyday I looked at it, it would build our relationship and patch up and pick up the pieces again. We were having a really rough 2 weeks. I mean in all honesty, I never thought it would live this long - I told my mom that if it lived a week, i’d be proud of myself.
This past weekend was probably my self realization weekend, where I realized through one little thing or person - we wouldn’t be the same again. So I had my “burying the hatchet” self analysis about how I should stop caring. I tried, I really tried and it’s pretty remarkable how when I decide that - my fish died. Waking up this morning, that was my first thought - then I thought, just like it I should go with the flow. To stop caring, isn’t going to solve anything right? I don’t know.
Well there you have it. Long story short: Our fish died this morning, and to me - I took care of that fish in hopes that we would get better. Now does that say that all my hope should be dead? Who knows.](http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lzpk0hLGT71qbg7wmo1_1280.jpg)
So today our fish, Tio Mari, died. No big deal right? It’s just a fish. Wrong completely wrong. You don’t take it for walks, you don’t teach it tricks, it just sits in its box and tries to look as cute as possible floating around. So why am I all upset about it? It was our fish, that’s why - Love and I. We won that at the Tet Festival about a month ago and it was kind of my replacement of a puppy I was asking for. Everyone from that night, including him, kept saying “Oh you know it’s just gonna die in like 2 days, it doesn’t matter.”
But that night he got all flustered that he couldn’t win me a big stuffed animal, so we won a fish [even though we cheated] and from that point on that fish had sentimental value to me. I named it Tio Mari like this inside joke song that we know, we were the “parents” of it and he would jokingly deny it saying he doesn’t look like him, etc.
Point being I took care of this fish, like I took care of us. I was always tending to this fish - with hope everyday I looked at it, it would build our relationship and patch up and pick up the pieces again. We were having a really rough 2 weeks. I mean in all honesty, I never thought it would live this long - I told my mom that if it lived a week, i’d be proud of myself.
This past weekend was probably my self realization weekend, where I realized through one little thing or person - we wouldn’t be the same again. So I had my “burying the hatchet” self analysis about how I should stop caring. I tried, I really tried and it’s pretty remarkable how when I decide that - my fish died. Waking up this morning, that was my first thought - then I thought, just like it I should go with the flow. To stop caring, isn’t going to solve anything right? I don’t know.
Well there you have it. Long story short:
Our fish died this morning, and to me - I took care of that fish in hopes that we would get better. Now does that say that all my hope should be dead? Who knows.
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jonnmichaelalexis said:
tio mari? yacht klub !!
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